“I didn’t plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once and that’s why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I’ll never forget a single moment of it.”

-The Notebook

Sorry, but unlike you, I’m not a doorknob where everyone gets a turn. I’m more of a casino where only the lucky ones hit the jackpot.

I’ve heard it a million times. “You can do better. You deserve so much more.” In reality, you’re right. But sometimes when you love, you love the person for who they are despite what they’ve done wrong to you. That’s what love does to you. It’s not about who you deserve, it’s about who you want, who you need, and who you love.

They'll never understand how much it hurts me.

Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don’t deserve me. They’re right, you don’t deserve me, but I deserve you.

Never get too attached to anyone because attachments leads to expectations and expectations leads to disappointments.

I wonder, if I died in some sort of accident right now, what people would have wished they had said to me before it was too late. Would they regret the things they did to me? Would they feel better knowing they were a good friend to me, or worse thinking that maybe they should have been a better one. Would they have wished they had spoken up and told me how they really felt about me, whether it be good or bad?

It's hard to let someone you care about go. ←

No matter who’s right or wrong, it’s still a difficult thing to do. We just tend to keep holding on until it gets too tiring to hold on, it gets tiring to go chasing them around when they are most likely never coming back like they once used to be. Letting someone go is by feelings, never by choice. You have an option to choose to let them go or not, but sometimes it’s the only way to go.

It’s only on the rare occasion when they’ll come back right after you let them go and try to fix things. It may come back as it used to be, but only stronger or it’ll come back, but with a different feeling, bonding because they have changed.

It’s just really difficult to let someone go. Someone you once held so much time creating memories with and those memories now stay with you, while you embrace all the happy and bad times, but they hardly think about it. Someone you care so much about. Someone you constantly gave your trust to, to only see that you have to let them go because you’re both going your separate ways. It hurts, doesn’t it? It’s a feeling that you can only feel that you will understand when someone can only feel a familiar pain as yours. It’s just painful to let someone you once talked to so much to, someone you care about daily go.

Because right now, all I have are memories which hurt to remember. It’s a painful uphill journey, going through each day wirthout you and knowing you don’t care. There are moments when I think that it’s gonna be a different day, when things may just finally fall into place but those are just moments that fade away rapidly, in a measure of a heartbeat.

All I know is, no matter how much people hurt you, no matter how much you wanna give up, and no matter how often the sun does not shine, you just need to keep going. Because for all the hurt that one person gives you, there are ten others who care. For all the things that make you wanna give up, there are so many things out there that are worth living for. And for all the days that seem cloudy and dark, just know that the sun is there, just waiting on its chance to shine.

Things that Hurt:

Being unsure of how someone feels about you.
Feeling like they are mad at you.
Being misunderstood by people you care about.
Being judged by people you care about.
Feeling like you lost something that was never yours.
Feeling like you’re doing too much.
Thinking you aren’t doing enough.
Not knowing if you should say something.
Worried about what they’ll think if you do say it.
Feeling like you care more than they do.

There’s a story behind every person. There’s a reason why they’re the way they are. They aren’t just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it’s impossible to fix them.

I’ve found that it’s a good thing to go through heartache at one point or another in your lifetime. Not the petty, childhood heartache. But the horrible kind we’ve experienced. But see, when you get to the healing part of this, you will have so much love to share with someone. You will be able to appreciate someone in ways even you cannot understand. You will be so much stronger than you were before. I know how much this sucks right now and I know it seems unfair, but when it’s all said and done with, this will all make sense. All this pain you are going through at this moment will eventually teach you some of the greatest lessons in life you will ever need to learn.

Everyone in your life is meant to be a part of your journey, but not all of them are bound to stay. Most often, you have to let people go.

Your guard is up and I know why
'Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"

Hey. Stuff happens. People will change. Your best friend will become your worst enemy. You will fall to pieces, and wish you never existed. You’ll have new regrets and new mistakes. You’ll fall in love, and he’ll break your heart. You’ll argue, and cry yourself to sleep. There will be some days when you can’t drag yourself out of bed. You’ll look in the mirror and hate what you see. But things will get better. Every time you fall down, you get back up. You grow up a little more with each mistake. And no matter how hard it may seem, remember that this is only a chapter of your life. Life goes on.

I’m mad at myself, not you. I’m mad for always being nice. Always apologizing for things I didn’t do, for getting attached, for making you a huge part of my life, wasting time on you, depending on you, thinking about you, wishing for you, dreaming of you. And most of all, for not hating you when I know that I should.

The sun will rise tomorrow. It always does, and all the wishing in the world for the way things were, or for what they could have been won’t change that. It won’t change how things are.
— Elizabeth Scott