The worst kinds of lies are the lies we tell ourselves just before we go to sleep. The lies that say ‘I’m happy’, or ‘He’s happy’, or ‘This will all be over’, or ‘I can change’, or ‘He’ll change his mind’, or ‘I don’t need her’, or ‘I don’t need him’.
— Desperate Housewives

without my best friends...

Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

It’s not okay because he made me laugh. Because I didn’t have to pretend to be anything other than who I am when I was with him. Because I don’t believe that stuff about finding your other half, but because I do believe that what you look for is someone who makes you a better person when you’re with them, who changes you for the better, who makes you the best person you can possibly be, and because I thought I had found that in [him].
—Mr. Maybe by Jane Green

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
— Neil Gaiman

once when i was little

When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, cancelled play dates, dropped ice cream cones — we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really it’s just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end. Just keep your faith.

broken & beautiful

I think we've all heard them all, I know I have

but you're gone and i knew it all along

see that girl?

yeah, she's the one who stuck up for you,
the one who stayed up
until midnight just to talk to you.
she's the one who secretly smiles
when she gets a call or text from you.
she's the one that fought for you,
that missed and cared about you.

but by the time you realize
that she's the girl you want...

she'll already be with
the guy who figured it out.

easier said than done

"This life is what you make it. No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes, it’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends – they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything – they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And I hate to say it, but most of them – actually pretty much all of them - are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about."
- Marilyn Monroe

"Love is needing someone. Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you."
— Sarah Dessen (This Lullaby)

i love you.

someone once said...

Sometimes late at night I think about all the things that have been, all the things that haven’t been and all the things yet to be. I wonder if this world will ever make sense to me, if I will ever truly understand anything… and if there’s really anything to understand at all.

When you’re struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through. — Nicholas Sparks - Dear John

You’re letting her think you’re emotionally available. You’re letting her think she has a chance. And there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance, when you really don’t.

You may not end up where you thought you’d be, but you always end up where you’re meant to be.

When you can’t stop a certain feeling from coming back, you have to stop and think that maybe it’s real. Maybe it’s supposed to be there. Maybe you aren’t supposed to keep denying it.

Some of the most comforting words that can be heard are “me too.” That moment when you find out that your struggle is also someone else’s struggle and that you’re not alone, fighting that same battle.

We’re not perfect. Any of us. We make mistakes, we screw up but then we forgive and move forward. — The Last Song

I gave you my heart and that’s all I can give to you. And if that’s not enough for you, then I’m not enough for you. — One Tree Hill

Moving on is tough, but so is holding on to something that may never be.

I’ve learnt that you can’t help who you fall for, and no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you, everyday you just want to be with them or just talk to them and you can never stop trying to make them happy because that’s what keeps you going.

The hardest part is waking up in the morning and remembering what you had been trying so hard to forget the night before.

Anyhow I’m fine. I mean, not that I’m over it, but little by little it’s getting easier to pretend it’s easier, which means easier might be right around the corner. — Gilmore Girls

That guy doesn’t know you, because if he did, he never would have walked away. — Dawson’s Creek

Everyone says that love hurts, but that’s not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again.

I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time overanalyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. Always remember that.

I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better off letting go. It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t even really have. Some of us say we’d rather have that something than absolutely nothing at all. But the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

Sometimes it’s best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve.

There’s always going to be bad stuff out there. But here’s the amazing thing- light trumps darkness, every time. You stick a candle into the dark, but you can’t stick the dark into the light. — Jodi Picoult

It’s like half of me really wants to be with him, and the other half of me just wants to be over him. — Laguna Beach

People say that the bad memories cause the most pain, but actually its the good ones that drive you insane.

We all can use a little hope sometimes, you know. That feeling that everything is gonna be okay and that there’s gonna be someone there to help make sure of that. — One Tree Hill

You know you really love someone when you don’t hate them for breaking you heart.

More than anything, I want you to be thinking of me.

Nobody deserves your tears, but whoever deserves them will not make you cry. — Gabriel García Márquez

It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.

Everyday is amazing. Even if it’s awful. Because everything is for a reason. Because I know that this horrible thing that happens today will bring me something amazing tomorrow. — Sandra Bullock

we may not realize it

but we all will be